come clean

So.. I guess I'll start my daily journals today, since I feel like procrastinating! Today was really tiring, but it was really fun, and I can honestly say that I was pretty happy the entire day :). During small group, we had our surprise party for Andrew, and although it was rushed and kind of disorganized, I have to admit, we're pretty cute for a bunch of lost seventeen-year olds. We had a grate meeting as well, and we talked about the beach/welcoming gifts for the incoming freshmen. I guess its finally happening; we're seniors, the official upperclassmen of highschool/PYM. Ugh, in my mind, it's still such an incoherent thought, and something that I have so much trouble accepting. Only a year left until we drop everything we've built up for the past 4, 5, 6 years and start all over again.. PIF, college, adulthood.. Too much. I need more time here. Although I was/am incredibly attached to my older brothers and sisters, I was able to understand that they had to grow up and move on.. But me? My grade? It just seems too soon.. I just pray that I'll truly make the best out of this next year,and that I'll be able to truly give it all up to God, truly become His vessel..
Anyways, today was also our annual church picnic. We weren't able to reserve Cunningham Park this year, so we had to opt for Flushing Meadow Park instead. It's a decent park, but it lacks the freedom that Cunningham offers.. We were crowded within a large square sectioned off by caution tape, and I felt so restricted! No privacy whatsoever.. It's okay though, because everything worked out well in the end. At first, we had a most terrible time trying to pull everyone together to play games, and I was getting really stressed out, but thankfully, Sharon, Changmin and Moses really took matters into their own hands and somehow managed to gather everyone and separate them into groups. We accidentally made too many teams though, so Ezra and I became sister groups with Peter and Ivy's group~ Things kind of didn't work out as planned for various reasons (the cookies melted, kids kept stealing the water balloons,etc), and we ended up playing only about two to three games, but it was really quite exciting, and I laughed my gut off. I really really love the 94s. Although we're so dysfunctional and we're kind of awkward sometimes, we're a really great group of kids, and I'm so blessed to be a part of them. PYM, FOREVER! :)
Oh yeah, today was also Fathers day, hehe. But because we know that on holidays such as these, restaurants are crowded and things just get really hectic, my family decided to skip out on eating out today and decided to go eat at Mizumi tomorrow for lunch instead! EVEN SO, (as per usual) we ended up going out to KFC for dinner hehe. I can't wait till tomorrow! mmmmmm mmmmmmmm good~
Tomorrow, I start work! Pay sucks, and its in the city, but hey, work is work! I hope things turn out okay:)
I should really start studying for the trig regents :(
AND I CANT WAIT FOR THE BEACH ON SATURDAY. I HOPE IT DOESNT RAIN. PLEASE LORD PLEASE LORD PLEASE LORD <3.