wake me up when september ends

Today marks the last September that I'll ever spend as a highschooler. Ah.

vanilla twilight

I want to soak up the sun and bask in all of its glorious light.
I want to dance with the rain and bathe in its infinite drops of cleansing flow.
I want to rest with the sweet grass and breathe in its calming scent.
I want to drink the fresh air and embrace it's reassuring whispers.
I want to be one with the sea and listen to it's never ending lullaby.
I want to caress the clouds and take naps in their wispy hugs.
I want to frolic amongst the flowers and muse at their observances.
I want to kiss the stars and make a million wishes upon them.
I would like to be somewhere closer to all of nature and it's innate beauty.

pleaaaaaaase

lightning

Today was such an incredibly tiring day. I must've been suffering from like a post-college trip hangover (not a literal hangover) or something because I was just wiped out in all my three classes hahah and I skipped sociology again ah. I really want to relive (most of) the past three days again. I haven't felt that way in a while.. Even so, I'm so grateful God gave me the replenishment I needed, right when I needed it. Thank you JESUS :).

We also had our first game against Cardozo on this beautiful day. We lost, as expected, but I think we put up a decent fight? I don't know :p. I've been writing my humanities paper for the past three hours and my brain is literally fried. I cannot wait for this week to be over. Please.. :).

skyscraper

THE COLLEGE TOUR TRIP WAS AMAZING. It was beautiful, majestic, and just what I needed. Although I was nervous about being with a whole different group of people, I adapted very nicely I think, and it was just a great experience overall. The landscape in upstate New York is one that leaves me at a loss for words, and I just felt so serene and at peace the entire time. ahhh ah ahhhhhh it was just.. great. :)

alea iacta est

In approximately 8 hours, I will be boarding on the bus to go to the college tour trip. Although none of my close friends are going, I'm reallllllly excited. Like really really excited! I've been wanting to get away forever, and finally- the day has come!

memory keeper

You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains.
You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.
You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows.
This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.

- William Shakespeare

songs that i currently cannot stop listening to

The scientist- Coldplay
For the first time- The Script
Yellow- Coldplay
We never change- Coldplay
Slow dancing in a burning room- John Mayer
Daughters- John Mayer
Should've said no- Taylor Swift
Someone like you- Adele
Last Kiss- Taylor Swift
Untouchable- Taylor Swift
Fix you- Coldplay
Iris- Goo Goo Dolls
Tim Mcgraw- Taylor Swift
You're not sorry- Taylor Swift
You and I both- Jason Mraz
Who am I to say- Hope
Dark blue- Jack's Mannequin
Bruised- Jack's Mannequin

cold as you

I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL COLLEGE APPS / SATS / ACTS are over. Sweet Jesus.. please...

we never change

10 Things that I learned today:
1. Next time I get a chai latte at Starbucks, I'm going to ask them to add one shot of vanilla to it.
2. Dr. Steinman is not really as nice as everyone makes her out to be. I'd prefer Ms. Fee over her anyday.
3. I have a weird feeling that even though right now I am burning with intense dislike for her, Ms. Fig and I will one day be friends.
4. Do all my assignments the day BEFORE they're due.
5. To stop pulling out my phone in the middle of the hallway, even if it's on the third floor. I had to cry my way out of getting it taken away today.
6. PMS is bad! Very bad! Ignore it and move on with life. Do not let it get to you, ever.
7. Have more confidence when playing vball with people who aren't on my team. Killer hits and smooth digs aren't useful when you can't do it in actual games.
8. I'm really behind on studying for my SAT IIs and ACTs. WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPP damn it!
9. To refrain from having too much faith in anyone. People disappoint more often than not. Better to expect the worst and hope for the best than to just receive constant let downs.
10. That when it comes down to the nitty gritty, all I really want for is to others to be truly happy.

half of my heart

A long.. overdue entry on the last few days..

9/8-12/11: First day of school! Life as a senior is great. It's pretty chill, and although I've been running around like a maniac trying to fix my schedule and ask teachers for recs. I managed to add precalc to my list of classes (Lord help me) and I'm currently in the process of trying to drop yearbook for AP human geography- once again, Lord help me! My new guidance counselor, Ms. Plesnik, is really helpful, and once again, Ms. Fee has become my go-to lady for everything. Jesus. I'm going to write another post for her soon. She deserves one all for herself :). Anyways, I have a nice amount of frees, and starting tomorrow, I'm going to try to make the best out of them!

I also tried out for the varsity volleyball team after two years, and guesssss who made it heheheh. I was so worried at first because we had a new coach, but I guess it turned out for the better because everyone got to start off on a clean slate. He's a pretty good coach, and I think I've really learned a lot over the past few days. I'm gonna be an outside hitter for the team (dont laugh) and I'm pretttttttty excited :)!!!!!! My appetites been fjldjfdl huge though.. oh well :D

9/11/2001

"and so as long as we live, they too, shall live, as long as we remember them."

covers

The Lord was really trying my patience today hahaha. I'm too lazy to retell my story (again) so I'm just going to list things in order.
- woke up to go to school
- dad called and said that he'd take me
- dad ran late and had to call the cab
- freaking taxi driver took me to qcc by accident
- i got lost in the building and was 30 minutes late to class
- the lecture hall was packed so i just skipped class to save myself from public humiliation
- decided to go make a new QC ID card
- ended up walking around campus for another 45 minutes after being sent from place to place
- finally got to QC library, realized that i didn't have any identification on me
- had to beg the guy to let me in but he said that i couldnt go back in once i left
- was virtually trapped in there for two+ hours
- met up with ivy for vball tryouts
- coach didnt let me tryout without my medical
- went to the doctors with appa and paid $80 for a freaking medical
- came home and realized how screwed i was for my sat IIs

Sigh. The only good thing that came out of this day was that I made mandoo with Glenn and ate them! :)

clocks

So, today was quite an interesting day, I suppose :). I dont know if it was the weather or something (yeah, probably) but out of nowhere, all these kids who were supposed to hang out with us today suddenly had plans, or were too tired or sick.. basically, we were supposed to go to coney island, and everyone was really excited, but due to the weather, we decided to go to brooklyn tabernacle instead, and.. wahlah. everyone bailed hahaha.. typical. Anyways, it ended up being just me, Ivy, Paul, Katie, Lawrence, Danica, and Eddie. Cute group, huh :). We ate at halmuhnee jip, then we were going to go to btab, but the weather as just awful and everyone started having second thoughts about going. We ended up going to Chuck E Cheese, out of all places, and spent a good two hours there hahaha. After, we went to Target and ate ice cream at the Hershey's snack corner there! It would've been nice to have been able to go to coney and watch the sunset, but hey, it was better than nothing!

read my mind

Labor day is one of the most depressing holidays of the year, I think. Although it does come with it's fair share of perks (people returning from college, huge shopping discounts, etc), it also marks the "official" end of summer. This year, I was supposed to go to a huge BBQ with townsend kids at Andrew's house, but my parents wanted to spend some more quality time so I had to stay with them. We had originally planned on going to Jersey, but we chose to go shopping in Long Island instead. We ate at 중국집 for lunch and headed off to Tanger Outlets. Maybe it was cause I already with on Saturday, but it just wasn't that great, and we left early to head off to Roosevelt Field mall. Surprisingly, I wasn't able to find anything that I liked there either- ACTUALLY.. I probably could've gotten some shopping done if Glenn didnt whine like a baby and drag me from store to store :(. Anyways, I returned home emptyhanded like the pathetic kid that I am, and although I promised myself that I would get some actual work done, I ended up watching Tangled and the season premiere of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. Day well spent? I think so! :p

the story of us

Two months. Let's see how this goes.

bubbly

I spent some nice quality time with appa today on a shopping trip to the Arches at Tanger Outlets. IT WAS GREEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT. Retail therapy will never ever fail me :).

someone like you

I had a greeeeeeeeat day with Ivy today :). If only all of summer was like this! ah...

goodbyes

Goodbyes.. I've experienced quite a few goodbyes throughout the past few weeks/days. For one, today was my last day at work. It was bittersweet, and I would've cried probably, save for the fact that I have complete faith and trust in my replacement :). Seriously though, right before I told the parents that I was going to quit, I prayed that Kevin and Eugene would be blessed with a babysitter who could do much better than I did, someone who could truly love them and have compassion for them. Just a day later, I found someone who wanted to do it, and surprisingly, she told me she felt "called" to the job. How crazy is that :).

I've also been sharing goodbyes with many of my friends who are heading off to college, both as freshmen and as returning students. It's always a little painful to say bye to them, but all the more so with this bunch of kids, as most of them are friends that I hold dearly to my heart..

I dont know if this would count as a "goodbye", but I recently decided to kind of cut off/fade a certain number of people out of my life. Not to spite them or anything, its just that they've all been detriments to me for the most part, and befriending them hasnt benefited me in any way. My previous statement sounds pretty selfish, but honestly at this point in my life, if you're just dragging me down from myself/others/God, you're just.. not necessary. Adios!

And last but not least.. summer. Today was the first day of September. Although it's not officially over yet, it's practically gone. So long summer '11, thanks for giving me some much needed rest. If you can, ask '12 to cut me some slack and let me have some more fun, okay? Thanks :)!