untouchable

Life at the moment is very confusing. I want to cry and lie on my bed and fall asleep and wake up in a couple of months. In fact, for the past few days, I've actually willed myself to fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow because I know that if I don't, too many unpleasant thoughts will overwhelm me and I won't be able to sleep at all. I don't want to think anymore. I just want to love and be loved and understand what is going on with everything in my life. I just want to know that I have a bright, welcoming future ahead of me. That is all I ask for.