This vacation has been moving at the speed of light.. Even so, it's been relaxing(ish). On Friday, I skipped on the KCQ revival and went shopping with Donna and James. It was kind of stressful because I'm a terrible shopper, but it was fun nonetheless. The past few months have been geared towards Ecclesia preparation, and the rest of the weekend-wednesday night was dedicated to the retreat. Ah, words cannot explain haha. I cant believe that I've already been to seven Ecclesias.. It's insane. God just refuses to stop moving and working in His people, amazing :).
Anyways, I don't really like opening up on public places like this because I'm afraid of who'll read it, but since nobody really uses blogspot, I guess I'll share what's been going through my mind for some time now. Throughout the past six months or so, I had a troubling relationship with a close friend, and it'd been the biggest hindrance to me; schoolwise, spiritually, emotionally, even physically. To invest so much into someone and to receive a slap in the face in return.. it hurts a lot haha. There was a lot of misunderstanding, silent treatments and the like. Neither of us really took the first step in mending things though, so it looked as if we were just going to remain like this, string after string of broken and ripped threads in a once beautiful garment. It killed me, but I was too shameful, too prideful, and too hurt to just talk to them, even ignoring two perfect opportunities that God presented me with. On Sunday though, I decided that I wasn't going to bring this with me to Ecclesia, especially for the candidates, so I sat down and talked with my friend for the first time in what seemed to be ages. I was genuinely terrified of the apathetic/stoic/ambivalent response that would follow, but instead I was greeted with the warmth and compassion that only certain people in life can truly offer. Gosh, I knew they were my friend for a reason ;). So, yes, God answered my prayers, and once again, my heart was healed with His caressing hand. There are still questions that I ask myself daily, and actions that I regret, but I know that His will is perfect, and that everything that has/had/is happening and will happen is backed by His reasoning, so I fear no more~.
Like I said, I returned on Wednesday, and after a night of plentiful and much needed rest, I went to my double birthday party with Anna on Thursday :). We went to Luna Park/Coney Island Beach and although it was kind of a rip off and a lot of the rides were closed, we still had a great time of fellowship with our friends, and I had the chance to hold some really meaningful conversations with my closest friends. I brought my new INSTAX, and I actually dropped it and broke it HAHAHA whoopsies! BUT I contacted Amazon, and I'm pretty sure I'll get a replacement one. If not.. uh.. I'm going to have to buy a new one without telling my parents ;o. It's okay, yesterday was still a much needed day of fun.
Today is Good Friday, and I've been sitting here for the past few hours staring at my SAT and AP practice tests. I wonder if I'll ever get to doing them hehe. Can't wait for the Good Friday Production/Service tonight :).
la vie est pleine de nouvelles choses.
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